So the last few months I have remained silent for a lot of reasons. Well today I am ready to tell you kind of why. So, my story with this actually starts when I was born. But I am not going to tell you the road to how this all began I am going to tell you about how this came about.
When I began my blog in March of 2016, I was going threw a lot. I was not in the best head space; I created this blog as a means to add a positive aspect in my life. Or a means of therapy for my self from what was happening around me. I think it helped for a short bit of time but in the long run it wasn’t going to work.
When I moved out of my first apartment that I shared I moved into a 50 year old apartment that had been re-done and was really expensive, and my mom and dad were helping me pay for it. I mean $10.00/hr. doesn’t pay $775+ other set of bills every month. On top of that school.
before Christmas I quit my job at the pool on the military base, got a temporary job that paid only $9.00/hr. part time with a boss who wasn’t quite fond of me because of my political opinions. (And I am not politically opinionated FYI.) However she never said it and it wasn’t ever going to say it, but from her body language she was screaming that she did not like me. She let my temporary job go on after Christmas time to the end of February. And then she let me go because “It wasn’t a good fit.” (HELLO I am a public relations major of course I am going to talk about current events…)
So I left there got a therapist and a Psychiatrist and got two jobs. Yes two jobs. One of them in retail that I will say I absolutely love, and another one at a cute little bakery in Ft. Worth that I also really love!
So I found out in the end of February I suffer from a chronic mental illness called “Major Depressive Disorder.” Growing up in a culturally diverse family and a divorced family also a blended family was rough. So this was onset. Now I take medicine and I go to therapy every two weeks and I see my psychiatrist every month. And I will say I love where my life is now. No drama, just work. No issues, just school. But it does get quite lonely.
Today I saw two of my best friends from high school that I have known for 11 to 10 years now. They are some of my best friends. Actually more like sisters. So When I got home I came home by my self to my dog while they go home to there husbands (my two brother in-laws or best friends husbands, and their kids. My niece and three nephews.) And when I got home cuddled my dog, I then I decided it was time to start writing again. Because, well I miss it. It has always been my therapy. My thing that I love to do. After all I began blogging because of how much I love it. To me I am good at it. I want others to come to my website because they generally love to read my material.
Now I want to say this. This has something I have been on the fence of talking about. Only my mom knows. But I think I have made my mind up on it. When I began writing this blog, I began to write a book as a means of therapy. Now I go to therapy and my therapist thinks writing is a good way to keep my mind busy. (hence why I am starting up this blog again.) So when my book is done. I want to get it published. I am not going to talk any more about it but I figured this is a good place to announce it. And I am actually excited about this next chapter in my life. (no pun intended)
So I wont blog on a routine every week, It might be once a month or every now and then. I want to go back to when writing was fun, and a hobby of mine that I did when I was younger. So I guess you can say that God really knew what he was doing when he put it in my heart to create this blog. And I hope he continues to work threw me while I write, on this blog again.
So I will list some websites below that will educate you on Major Depressive Disorder, and remember you can keep up with my life on instagram and Twitter!
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NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFE LINE 1(800)-273-8255
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